It's hard to be an entrepreneur.

The word entrepreneur makes me cringe. Maybe because it has become such a commonly abused word on social media. But despite my dislike of the word, an entreprenuer is exactly what I am. Or at least it’s what I want to be. As you can see, there is a bit of impostor syndrome at play here.

At this point, I’ve built Treasure Coast Notary service from the ground up. I’ve maintained 5 affiliate marketing blogs at this point. I’ve also vibecoded Plain, Coming Attractions, Treasure Coast Today, The Sports Page, and soon to be launched, Get Good. Despite the output, I feel like I’m working my ass off for nothing. Not that I’m not making a little money. I am. Mostly from my notary and court reporting work, but it’s just not nearly enough to support us.

Can I really call myself an entrepreneur if I’m barely making any money? My notary work is by far my most successful. I’ve done really well building local SEO. Proof’s on-demand notary jobs also provide some cash flow. Working for Filevine as a digital recorder has been a big boost to my weekly income, and yet still… it’s not enough. I can barely pay our utilities, let alone rent.

I’ve lost track of how much money we owe my parents. 10s of thousands. Is all the work worth it? Will it pay off in the end? Why does no one seem to want to hire me anymore? The few interviews I do get seem to regret their decision to interview me the second they lay eyes on me. I’m sure this is probably mostly in my head. But not completely. And I can’t blame them too much based on my physical appearence (fat, often red-splotched). Fat equals lazy and splotched equals diseased or dirty. Also my bad webcam didn’t help.

I just want all of this work to payoff. I want people to see that my idea’s are as good as I believe them to be. It’s frustrating that I’m not getting more traction on X, despite feeling like I’m doing all the write things. ChatGPT told me I was probalby using so many links in my posts, so I’m going to try and pull back on that.